Monday, September 12, 2011

Nearing the End

So the last days of my pregnancy are upon me. I thought I would sail smoothly through these last weeks (days??) but alas, the Lil Sweet Pea had other ideas.

On Friday, I went in for my routine weekly appointment and Non Stress Test. The nurse takes my blood pressure and it is high. But she doesn't seem too worried and just tells me she will take it again when I am in the exam room. Okay, I think, no big deal. My blood pressure has been perfect throughout the entire pregnancy. I was not even alarmed in the least.

So I am in the exam room, all hooked up to  the machine for the Non Stress Test and the nurse takes my blood pressure again--still high. Hmmm, I think, that is weird. The nurse leaves and the Doctor comes in and checks me--I am 1 cm dilated and starting to have itty bitty contractions. Woo Hoo! I think to myself, We are making progress!!! I am excited because I for a brief millisecond of time believe labor is imminent and that I will be holding the Sweet Pea in my arms soon! But alas, that is not how it goes.

The doctor looks at my chart and says "Your blood pressure is a bit too high for my liking. I am sending you over to the hospital to labor and delivery and they are going to run some labs, give you an ultrasound, and another Non Stress Test. I'll stop by to check on you later." My head is spinning and all I can think is "What? What just happened??"

But I call the hubby and he has to drive 45 minutes from his work to meet me at the hospital. By the time he gets there I am already in a room and hooked up to the monitor. I have had blood drawn. I am waiting to go for an ultrasound to make sure the fluid in the sac is still good and the baby is okay. I am officially freaking out. I am also officially starving. All I had eaten before I went to my appointment was my cereal and my ice water. I have now been in the hospital for HOURS and they won't let me eat because they do not know if they are going to have to induce labor. Oh sheer torture for me who needs to eat a little something every two hours or I completely crash. Let me tell you--I was crashing and burning. I arrived at the hospital at 10:30 a.m. and it was now pushing 3:00 pm. Let's just say I was not a happy camper and leave the ugliness out of it!

Finally get taken to the ultrasound and the Lil Sweet Pea looks good. Fluid is still great. Little one is active and approximately 6 pounds now! It was so neat to see the baby so big and well formed. Our other ultrasound had been at about 15 weeks and the sweet pea really didn't look so baby like! But now --Oh dear lord I cried seeing that little one on the screen. My little miracle baby!

Go back to the room and the doctor comes and tells me the labs look good my pressure has dropped and they are going to let me go home. However, now I am on bed rest. Oh. No. I have to spend the weekend laying down on my left side. On Monday I will return to the office and they will decide whether to admit me and induce labor or let nature take its course.

So today, I went back to the doctor. After laying in bed all weekend--blood pressure looked good, baby is doing well, contractions are still happening, cervix is softer. So pending the results of my 24 hour urine test we will decide whether or not I am to be induced or if we are just going to let nature take its course. I am however, on modified bed rest for the duration--no lifting, no walking too much, no housework, just lots of laying on left side and relaxing. So that is what I am doing!!

It looks like the Sweet Pea's arrival just may be sooner than expected!!!

Much luv!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011


Blogger why do you hate me so????? Why is that every single freaking time I want to comment on someones blog or ask a question you will NOT post my freaking comment!!!!!????????????

Stop telling me I need to sign in--I am signed in!!!!!! ARRRRRG...I am telling you...if this doesn't get resolved soon..I am jumping ship and heading over to Wordpress...this is ridiculous!! I can't even express thanks to the people who comment on my blog!!! ARRG So FRUSTRATED!!!!

Monday, September 5, 2011

Pregnancy Makes You Feel Left Out

I have to preface this blog entry by saying that I have enjoyed being pregnant immensely and the past 9 months have flown by rather quickly. But I am approximately 38 weeks now and pregnancy is not quite as fun or as cute as it was a few months back.

I don't want to be a "Debbie Downer" but really in the past week or so things have gotten incredibly uncomfortable, nothing fits comfortably anymore, my back is killing me, my bladder is staging a mutiny, and sleep is basically me flipping from one side to the other and rearranging the pillows all night long. I no longer walk, or even waddle in the cute way I was a few weeks I lumber like ain't attractive. My hair is tri colored--meaning I have not been able to dye it in 9 months and now it is a lovely shade of GRAY, BLACK, and Brownish...I look like hell.Oh and I am a bit more cranky than usual (okay a hell of a lot more cranky!) and I am at the point where as terrified of labor as I am, I would like to just have the baby now.

And on top of all these lovely things I am emotional as hell. Thus the title of this post. I feel incredibly left out. I can't do anything anymore. Its a struggle just to walk around our mall and our mall is TINY!!! UGGG...but on top of all this, hubby and the teenager joined Karate.

I always wanted to try martial arts. I am feeling very left out because obviously I cannot join now and will not be able to join anything like that for several weeks after the baby is born. (And in all honesty--am I going to be able to do it then anyways?? I think I am going to be preoccupied with a newborn...) But anyways, the crux here is that I ALWAYS wanted to learn it and the hubby knew that and he joined with out me and then of course the teenager thought it sounded cool so she joined up two days later. Now it is all they talk about. And it makes me mad. I can't do a darn thing and they are out there three days a week learning all this cool stuff while I am stuck at home feeling like a fat slug. I admit it --I am jealous and it makes me feel awful. I hate feeling left out.

Hubby said I should definitely join after I am cleared for activity after the baby comes. But by that time hubby will be months ahead of me and I know I will feel like I am always trying to catch up to his level. Not a confidence booster for me. Then hubby says "...and it takes a lot of focus and you get frustrated very easily." Ohhhhhhhhh....great in other words 'maybe you shouldn't try it'....

So feeling left out and feeling like a slug not a good combination. So now I want to find something I can do for myself, that will make me feel good, and give me some time out of the house once the baby arrives. Because I know that I need to take care of me as well as taking care of the baby. I just don't know what I want to try...But I know I have to find something I will enjoy because otherwise I will just continue to feel left out and upset. And I so do not want that to be the case.

So I am off to research post pregnancy activities I can take up after the Sweet Pea arrives!!

Much luv!!