Today is my baby shower that my lovely Sister-In-Law is throwing for me. I can not say enough good things about her or what she means to me! She has been my best friend for sixteen plus years and I love her to death!! She is the sweetest, kindest, most loving person I have ever known and she is always doing something sweet for me. Like throwing me a baby shower.
Which can't be easy. Without getting into details now(I will definitely post about it later and in greater detail) about a year ago a significant portion of my relatives and I had a falling out over family issues that apparently had been bubbling over in many people's minds for a long time. It got ugly. It was not pleasant and my family with whom I thought I was so close to cut off all ties from each other for over a year. Needless to say baby steps have been taken to try to repair the damage and hurts on both sides. But it is still a bit awkward and tense.
Which makes me a bit nervous for today. I don't know what will happen or who will actually be there. It may in fact just be me, my sister-in-law, my step-daughter, and my one aunt. Sad but true. As for my own mother-she is an alcoholic whom I have seen or spoken to since I was fifteen so I know she won't be there!!! But the whole thing makes me a bit sad since this is supposed to be such a joyous time but it is bittersweet knowing that I just don't have all my girls in my family around me anymore.
But I am going to try and be positive and not let the pessimism and sadness overide which should be a joyous day no matter who shows up to celebrate my Lil Sweet Pea. The people who do are the ones who matter the most and really no amount of sadness or regret will instantly repair those relationships so I just have to keep moving forward and focus on the joy of my Sweet Pea.
So I am going to smile brightly and just enjoy the happiness of the day and those who are there to celebrate with me! I'll post later and let you know how it went! But in the meantime...Happy Baby Shower Day to me and the Lil Sweet Pea!!!